Disorderly Mind...

6 Weeks Post-Hospital

Thu, 19 Nov 2009 21:29:58 -0500

Been out of the hospital for a whole 6 weeks now. Holy crap it does not feel like it has been that...

It's been awhile but I'm finally back

Sun, 15 Nov 2009 18:44:00 -0500

Well, here I am, finally back after weeks and weeks of either being in the hospital or being too out...

Home again home again jiggedy jig....

Wed, 07 Oct 2009 14:24:50 -0400

Another 7 days inpatient under my belt. Home again now - whoopdee doo.

Things are not getting better

Sun, 27 Sep 2009 22:00:00 -0400

I’ve been out of the hospital for weeks, out of the outpatient program for about a week, and...

ieatcatlitter: naughtybyniemczyk: two things i have never...

Sun, 27 Sep 2009 14:59:42 -0400

ieatcatlitter:

naughtybyniemczyk:

two things i have never seen

1. smiling punk rocker

2. a black kid wearing a lei

this was taken at a Pride festival. The kid was there with his dads and saw the punk’s spikes. The punk bent down to let him touch them and they hugged afterward.

This made me miss the days when I lived in DC and my daughter and I would go to the Pride parade to show support. What a great event. We even made the front page of the local LGBT paper one year!

Current Meds

Sun, 27 Sep 2009 13:11:58 -0400

I’m bored… PRN (as needed) Ativan .5MG At 6PM Seroquel 50MG At Bedtime Ativan...

ieatcatlitter: disorderlymind: Girl, Interrupted This is how...

Sun, 27 Sep 2009 10:00:00 -0400

ieatcatlitter:

disorderlymind:

Girl, Interrupted

This is how crappy my day is…this movie is waiting for my in the mailbox and I can’t get myself to walk out there. I see the fucking neighbors with their cheerful children outside and I think if I go out and they say something I may just start screaming and tearing out my hair. I’ve had a better day than yesterday mostly by sitting very still and trying not to disrupt the air around me. When I was in the hospital they actually mentioned this movie being about BPD so I put it on Netflix and it should be here. But here I am with my cowardly ass just sitting inside wishing I could watch it again. The damned thing is like 50 yards away or something. Shit.

read the book. it’s the truth and it’s better than the movie.

Oh, good idea! I requested it from the library, I am second in line. So that usually means I will get it sometime this week. My concentration is crap right now and I can hardly read anything longer than an magazine article but maybe this will help pull me out of it. I LOVE to read. Thanks for the tip!

Girl, Interrupted This is how crappy my day is…this movie...

Sat, 26 Sep 2009 18:52:00 -0400

Girl, Interrupted

This is how crappy my day is…this movie is waiting for my in the mailbox and I can’t get myself to walk out there. I see the fucking neighbors with their cheerful children outside and I think if I go out and they say something I may just start screaming and tearing out my hair. I’ve had a better day than yesterday mostly by sitting very still and trying not to disrupt the air around me. When I was in the hospital they actually mentioned this movie being about BPD so I put it on Netflix and it should be here. But here I am with my cowardly ass just sitting inside wishing I could watch it again. The damned thing is like 50 yards away or something. Shit.

ieatcatlitter: bradicalmang: deadchique:pandyland:(via...

Sat, 26 Sep 2009 18:44:16 -0400

ieatcatlitter:

bradicalmang:

deadchique:pandyland:(via youmaybeoffended)

disorderlymind started following you

Sat, 26 Sep 2009 18:31:04 -0400

ieatcatlitter: thanks. side note: kind of creepy now tumblr. it’s no longer “started following this...

10658.) I'm always feeling as if I'm never good enough, like a social outcast. Outside I may seem like any other girl but deep in the inside, I'm completely miserable.

Sat, 26 Sep 2009 18:25:31 -0400

(via blogsecret) My motto.

(via ieatcatlitter) This was my mission today. I won.

Sat, 26 Sep 2009 18:22:56 -0400

(via ieatcatlitter)

This was my mission today. I won.

Borderline Personality Disorder: No Man Is an Island: Scientific American

Thu, 24 Sep 2009 14:35:54 -0400

Borderline Personality Disorder: No Man Is an Island: Scientific American: Mildly interesting.

Now I'm hallucinating...

Thu, 24 Sep 2009 13:44:00 -0400

Is any of this ever going to get better? Or can we just keep adding on all these fun things like...

I HAVE done this in the past week!!

Wed, 23 Sep 2009 15:04:58 -0400

borderline-confessions: Today, I went out to buy some nice high heel shoes. I came back home with a...

I really don't want to be a web developer...

Wed, 23 Sep 2009 15:03:00 -0400

I finally found a Tumblr theme that has Disqus comments integrated and I halfway like it. But for...

"Life begins on the other side of despair."

Wed, 23 Sep 2009 13:42:54 -0400

“Life begins on the other side of despair.” - Jean-Paul Sartre

Mood Tracker

Wed, 23 Sep 2009 09:31:26 -0400

Mood Tracker: Really interesting site for tracking moods. It has mood charts, reminder emails or...

Dissociation? Depersonalization? Derealization?

Tue, 22 Sep 2009 20:46:00 -0400

Well shit. I am out of the hospital. Done with the outpatient program. And I am having...

Oktoberfest, 2009 - The Big Picture This does look like a lot...

Mon, 21 Sep 2009 15:28:22 -0400

Oktoberfest, 2009 - The Big Picture

This does look like a lot of fun, and I don’t even drink. I know, bah!!